Alicia's Freak Out

The Worst Movie Theater. Ever.

It's bad enough I have to live in the "armpit" of America, but at least have a good movie theater. The famous Cinemark is a fun time, don't get me wrong, but now after I moved a mere 30 minutes away, I had to relocate myself to a new theater. The theater itself is clean but the teeny boppers who rule there on Friday and Saturday nights are not entertaining. I don't want to wait in line next to "Barney's Playhouse." I am an adult and although I know the theater has to cater to young adults as well, at least have some kind of order. They are all over the place.
Then to make matters worse, I take the elevator up to where the theater's are located and I forgot, we need popcorn. Duh! I am not going to sit still for 2 hours with no drink or food. I need something. The lines, usually five open, are packed and it gets so bad that even tho I was a good 15 mins early for the movie by the time that we bought the tickets and popcorn, I found myself missing half of the beginning. FML.
What is wrong with this scenario?

My First Apartment!

It's that time! Time to cut the cord and move out! I've been wanting to move out since age 18 and I found myself staying and staying. I communted to college and then got one boyfriend after the other in my area, which made for a reason to stay. After one of my former college friends and fellow coworker asked me to get an apartment with her, I was hestitant. I thought, I live at home for free, so why pay to live in the area? After a couple interesting things happened in my life, #1-my boyfriend and I broke up, #2-couldn't stand answering to my parens, and #3-wanted to break free and get away from negativity, I decided to take the plunge. I wanted change. I wanted to do something different, something on my own. I wanted to define myself.

After multiple searches on one of my new favorite sites "Craiglist.com", I found one of the cutest apartments ever. Hardwood floors and decent size rooms, it was perfect for my roommate and I. When I first saw it, the first apartment I ever looked at for myself, I fell in love. We looked at others afterwards but something about this one stuck with me. After some time passed, my roommate finally agreed and we took it. I signed the lease and off I went into this new apartment.

My guy friends helped me move and my dad found a large van to put all of my stuff in. I was excited to do two things.. #1-decorate everything with pictures, paintings, and rugs. and #2- put a basket with magazines in my bathroom. Weird, huh? I always wanted to do that. Needlesstosay, I love it! It has only been less than a week, but I love the feeling of being on my own-even though I talk to my parents everyday on the phone. It's a feeling of relief to go to "my place" to do what "I want to do."

I wanted to be independent and this is definitely a great stepping stone. I have to do things on my own and for me and it's a great feeling! I'll keep you posted!

What a TOOOL!

So they were brought to the show thinking that this was a contest for "Mr. Awesome." Let's just say.. even if it was, why are you going on this show? Moving on, after a friend from work told me about this show, I decided to watch. Wow, did I get interested. The show's called "Tool Academy" and it's on at 9pm on Sunday nights. I usually cannot catch it because it is on during the time of Desperate Housewives (which I won't miss) but I definitely tune in for it's reruns. This show is based up guys who are complete and utter TOOLS.

What's a tool you may ask? According to Urban Dictionary, "a shithead, doper boyfriend who doesn't know how to treat a girl." They have cheat, treated their girlfriend like he's her owner, and even had another girlfriend on the side. To be honest, I felt for these girls. They loved these guys for one reason or another and wanted so badly to make them into their knight and shining armor that they brought them on national television as a last resort. Hidden cameras showed the men talking to other women, telling them they were single and some even went out of their way to retrieve the girls phone number. All of this was shown to their girlfriends, which brought about tears and saddness. DUH! After watching with this guy I was seeing, I watched his reaction. He said "Why do these girls stay?" I hesitated and thought about that. It's easy to say "I know. I'd be gone." Would I really though? Once you are so wrapped up in a relationship, sometimes it's hard to leave. This made me think about things and since I am now single, it made me think that I need to build myself up strong enough to be able to walk away when things get bad or from the tool guy before he ends up becoming my boyfriend.

Girls, beware. There are a lot of "tools" out there who feed on their protein shakes, jagerbombs and getting with many women. They may charm you, wine and dine you, and then play you. Play with your guard up or you're going to end up being on Season 2.

Love Lost.

When you date someone for a long period of time, you find that you have become accustomed to the lifestyle. You become so accustomed that you rather be miserable and together, then alone. That was my problem. To look at it from my angle now, it's sad and pathetic..but when you're in that situation..it's almost natural. You don't want to hear any different because you think your life is over because your not with that person anymore. It's not over... in fact, it's just the beginning of something great, something better. There is a reason why the last guy didn't work out. It wasn't meant to be because if he really loved you.. like you know or think you love him.. he'd never let you go. And he did. So what to do?

#1...Call all of your friends. It is important that you didn't screw up friendships during your relationship (which is easy to do esp. if your with the bf all the time). If you did- try sending a "I'm sorry" card and when you get into your next relationship..remember NOT to do it again. If you didn't.. call all the girls and guys that have been there..text or IM ones who haven't... and see what they are up to. Talk, talk, vent, scream, argue. They will all tell you.. "It's not you..it's him."
#2...Cry. The first thing I did, is think about all the good times we had..(although outweighed by the bad) and cry, scream, and be sad over them. Then realize..that wow..look at the bad crap he did. Remember when he forgot to call? Remember when he would never go on a vacation? Moving in before marriage is a no for him? Think of everything that SUCKED... because in every relationship..you'll find it. That will make you feel all the better.
#3...Get closure or as much as you can salvage. I got my fair share of "cut-offs" and trust me, they are the worst. Try your best to find out why the relationship ended-especially if you think you did nothing wrong. Was it because of the constant fighting? Are you too immature to handle something so serious right now? Have you fallen for someone else? Despite the answer, be prepared to control you reaction. Most guys won't be honest with this. However, let them say what they have to say and you'll find out later why. It is just important to get as much as you can..and fill in the rest with answers that make you feel better. This will help you move on...until that is you see that is now in a relationship with someone else on Facebook. Then you just laugh it out and move the hell on. Because you know they are not as attractive as you anyway so you should feel good to still keep the title of "Their Prettiest Girlfriend."
#4...Keep busy. It's so easy to stay in bed, with a million used tissues, having a friend translate your conversation because she can't understand through the yelps and cries. This isn't good for more than a day or two. Dress up to kill in your highest heels (because face it girl, you want a guy taller than you. What is with Katie Holmes anyway?) and talk to people. Be outgoing and friendly and don't be afraid to be aggressive..just make sure he isn't someone's boyfriend..or husband for that matter.
#5...Find a cute guy and start talking. It's the best way to get yourself over the loser that just broke up with you. Kiss him, hold hands, cuddle..but don't have sex. Having sex will just make matter worse for you.. even if it is like a month at this point after the breakup. It's time for YOU..not him. You're still vurenable and this new guy knows it, even though he looks so good compared to your ex. Remember that he might have sex and then forget you.. It's not you're boyfriend..it's just a guy you're talking to. It is important to remember that because it's so easy to feel comfortable with the "new guy" that you forget that you don't really know much about him. You can't trust yet.
#6...Determine yourself. Now's your time to build yourself up. You have just experienced something really devasting and building yourself back up will only make you a much stronger person. If you wanted to move, move. If you always wondered what it would be like to go pick up guys at the bar, do it. Do whatever you want and you have NO one to answer to.
#7...Don't get out of control. It's easy to become summersed into the life of partying, alcohol and random men. However, it's not smart. Don't change who you are and don't get out of control. One of my friends from high school did this and got into a fatal car crash.
#8...Smile. I know I controlled myself to have this "bitch" look at the bars. This way I didn't have to deal with the fact of arguing with my boyfriend because a sleeze just hit on me. Become more approachable.
#9...Make a standards list. What did you hate about your ex and what did you love? For the next potential, run through these questions in your mind or even to him. Get to know him first. If he doesn't fit this criteria..tell yourself.. he could be your friend and nothing more. Move on.
#10...Don't get into a realtionship for at least a few months after. Even if he is getting tagged in smooching pictures with some whore, don't lower yourself. It's very hard..but good things come to those who wait. I'm not saying don't search.. but don't settle.

back to the blog.

Okay. So it has been quite some time since I have written but I'm back. A lot has happened since last time I wrote in. I'm single now..for one. At first, I thought this was upsetting..of course. How do you get over someone in like a day? It's impossible. For my first "real" blog post since my return in 2009..I will tell you about how to deal with it, move on, and get the closure you need even though you aren't able to really get it.

Didn't Really Feel The Thunder.

With my expectations high, Tropic Thunder didn't really give me what I wanted. It was funny..here and there.. and if it wasn't for Robert Downey Jr this movie would of flopped. Despite being accused of making fun of a black man, considering that he was actually painted up to look like one-this wasn't at all offensive-i didn't think so anyway. I mean, he was acting like a black man acts and if a black man.. say like White Chicks.. were acting like white people.. it would be just as funny. Each race has certain characteristics that are unique and busting upon them once in a while-makes life worth laughing at. Needlesstosay, wait until DVD for this one. It was OK.. 3/5 stars. There is a few funny laughs.. considering that u are putting Ben Stiller and Jack Black together.. and of course, your occasional love for Matthew McConnahey who makes a great appearance in this movie as Ben Stiller's agent. Tom Cruise.. is .. well see if u could spot him.. because until my boyfriend pointed him out.. I didn't. It kinda grossed me out actually.. thinking of Katie Holmes going to this premiere and having to sleep with him after looking like that..

DVD $5... not movie $8.

3/5 stars